PAINT HILLS

WEMINDJI

I was born to John Murdoch and Gerti Murdoch (Diamond) when they lived in Paint Hills (Wemindji) in 1971.

When my mother was in her first trimester, she was terribly frightened when she awoke with a hand that was placed on her eyes. She suffered a severe panic attack and nightmares for days afterwards.  When she told her mother Hilda Diamond (Hester), the response wa that there is a chance that there might be something wrong with her baby as her mother had seen other Cree women suffer consequences in their pregnancies when traumatized during their first trimesters. Hilda explained that the issue would likely be related to the traumatic event. 

Months later, at a time in Eeyou Istchee when there were no sonograms, my grandfather, Malcom Diamond had a dream. My grandfather was known to have dreams which were premonitions of births and deaths. He told my mother that he dreamt that he was walking on a path and he met her son. He said he noticed that there was something wrong with the his hand but that she shouldn’t worry about this because he would make up for it with other gifts. 

Having met my grandfather before my birth, he has always been my hero. I learned profound lessons from him on the balance between pride and humility. I have an early memory of being about three years old, visiting Rupert House (Waskaganish) with my parents and I was coming up the wood walkway to his door with my left hand in my pocket. He came out of his door with his booming voice stopping me from going inside. He yelled that he did not want me to come into his house with my hand in my pocket like I had something to be ashamed of and sent me away. It took courage at 3 years old to come back without my hand in my pocket, but the hugs and kisses with his scratchy beard in the small house heated with the wood stove were more than worth it. 

We all have scars on the outside and or the inside, but they should never prevent us from being authentic and we should always reward authenticity with warmth and empathy. We lived in Wemindji until I was 5 years old. This is where my  home is and to this day I am known as Paul John Murdoch. Although there is a special warmth in my heart when an elder shakes my hand and with wink says “Wemindji Eeyou”.

We all have scars on the outside and or the inside,

but they should never prevent us from being authentic

and we should always reward authenticity with warmth and empathy.

RUPERT HOUSE

WASKAGANISH

In 1976 we moved to my mother’s hometown of Rupert House (Waskaganish), surrounded by family. The sense of community and belonging in a Cree community is very powerful. It is so powerful it can change a name. My mother’s family didn’t really like the name Paul John. “John Paul sounds so much better!”, it was said, so my mother agreed that I should be called John Paul. From that day on I was called John Paul regardless of what was written on my birth certificate. Even though it has made my name a source of confusion, it will always be a beautiful reminder of the power of community.

Growing up in Waskaganish spending summers on the Nottaway River learning from one of the greatest hunters, Jimmy Whiskeychan and his sons Bert, Joey, Bentley, Wilfred, and Sydney, who was my age, was the best childhood. With no drinking water, sewage system or access road, it is still hard to believe we were considered poor. I paddled the Pontax River a few years ago and after rounding the point in Rupert’s Bay and turned south, I was struck with a long forgotten memory of hunting snow geese on a small bay and having the privilege of having my blind beside the late Willie Jacob. It was such a powerful memory that when I reached Waskaganish I had to visit his wife Alice who had come to my rescue so many times when I was a boy.

Being a member of the Waskaganish Diamond family meant always learning from aunts and uncles dedicated to serving our people, like my aunt Annie Whiskeychan, who was dedicated to the preservation of the Cree language, or my uncles Billy and Albert, who helped create a Nation. As a child I would admire my uncles with no clue of their actual contributions to our Nation. I admired my uncle Stanley for his daredevil antics, my uncle George was the cool one like Arthur Fonzarelli on Happy Days, Billy Diamond and Albert Diamond had the best stories often leaving people in tears of laughter. My uncle Charlie was most like my grandfather as the tallyman with reverent knowledge of the land. I miss listening to conversations between my uncles, they would always use their full names. Billy, “Hey Albert Diamond, how is it going?” Albert, “It is going good, how about you Billy Diamond.”

I would leave Waskaganish at the age of 13. My mother dedicated her life to education and knew that if I was going to achieve my dream of becoming a lawyer, I would need to be challenged academically. I love going back to Waskaganish and seeing the faces of children I couldn’t possibly know but recognizing their grandparents, parents or other relatives in their faces. These are the people who named me John Paul.

BECOMING A LAWYER

and the importance of the teachers

I don’t know when my dream of being a lawyer began but I know that it was encouraged and came true because of my mother’s love and support. After leaving Waskaganish at 13, I completed high school in Manitoba staying with my uncle Clive and Agnes Morgan (Diamond) and their wonderful kids who I consider brothers and sisters today. I studied Political Science at Concordia University and graduated from McGill University with degrees in Common Law and Civil Law, then squeaking through Bar School to become a licensed Cree lawyer. In my final year of law school I would get elected to the Grand Council of the Crees (Eeyou Istchee)/Cree Regional Authority. Unlike my fellow graduates, I did not apply to multiple law firms in New York and Montreal but only one: Mainville et Assoc. I wanted to serve my people and I wanted to learn from the best. 

I am humbled by the help I had along the way. Professor Jean Charest is the one who befriended me at Concordia University and got me into law school at McGill University. As I was struggling to pass my Bar school exams, it was then Grand Chief Ted Moses who banned me from Board/Council meetings and gave me the support I needed to get through. Sadly great leaders who were also my teachers like my mother, Billy Diamond, Smally Petawabano, David Masty, Reggie Mark, Annie Whiskeychan have passed. Thankfully, we have many more great leaders and mentors ready and willing to assist in the building and defending our Nation. I have so many incredible teachers that I have no hesitation when it is time to give back as a law professor for University of Ottawa, Concordia, University of Montreal, UQAM, UQAT or putting together workshops for Youth Councils.

It is a wonderful time in my life: I have strong bonds with past leaders, I get to meet and work with amazing new ones and I have brilliant friends and colleagues with whom to serve my people.